It’s 7 o’clock in the fucking morning!!! I feel like a squished doughnut injected with coffee, depressed doughnut that is! I’m one hour away from my “very important” state exam on Russian. The state exam is something you have to take in order to graduate, but this still isn’t enough motivation for me. You see, I hate Russian language, I know I have Russian followers here and don’t mean anything by you guys, but your language is the hardest thing I had to learn my WHOLE life! So anyway, I didn’t study at all for this, I mean AT ALL! And, have you ever had one of those days where you have to do something, but you know you’ll fail miserably at it, but you still do it, because, well…you have nothing better to do??? I bet you haven’t!
I keep thinking that somehow, magically, everything will turn out for the best and after this I would chase rainbows down a golden river. I was one step away from leaving the exam for Spring, but my inner, responsible self desperately wants me to go. I see this as some sort of an achievement (me getting my ass out from bed before 11 and going to an exam I know I’m going to fail).
If this was a movie I would definitely have my own really, really sad background music and different kinds of black and white scenes to represent my emotional struggle throughout the day.
So anyway, look of the day (yesterday) is a bit different from my usual style. Boyfriend says I look like an owl with that make up. I’m not sure whether he meant it as a compliment or insult, because he loves owls. Or maybe he just wanted to tell me, in his own way, that I’m as ugly as a bird.
Update: Passed! Now I’m off to get drunk!
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