Wherever there are secrets, there are diaries. We’ve all been struck by unrequited love, got betrayed by our best friend, eat tons of ice cream then threw up. That’s why diaries have been around for so long, we’ve all had secrets or something to say, but no one to share it with. So we turn to the garbage disposal of our soul- the diary- that glitter notebook, with perfumed pink pages and a huge golden padlock which actually doesn’t do anything except look cool.
I had the opportunity to revisit my diary and let me tell you, those are 30 minutes of my life, I desperately want back. My diary is so boring, so crammed with punctual and grammatical mistakes that I keep wondering, have I been a retard? Is this really who I was? No wonder I was rotting at home with no friends, even my diary couldn’t bare the though to be my friend, it was so teared up, my guess is, it tried desperate attempts to commit suicide.
I wrote in English, because of paranoia some of my parents could read it. I can give you a few quotes to take in all the stupidity, but that would be too embarrassing. But many of them go something like this: “today I did nothing, I’m very dissapointed by that”, or “I like V. but he doesn’t even want to talk, so I go to talk to him, but he was so shy he say nothing, so i gave him my number but he never call me, maybe hes afraid…” Or maybe I scared the shit out of him with the constant staring and stalking. Weird thing is that most of the things I wrote were very depressing like :” i wan die” or “hamster died, i thought he was sleeping, i need vacation and boyfriend”. I found a few things that were bit more positive like: “today we talked with (whoever the hell I talked with) and we smiling and laughing i was very happy, i need attention”.
How come I was so stupid? I wonder if other people read their diaries and feel awkward from the dumbest shit they wrote, or is it just me? Well, I might as well be thankful that eventually my brain grew larger than the size of a peanut, so no harm done.
What about you my fellow readers, did you have a diary?
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